Evaluation for JuPeD

It's my very much of a target for this year's Ramadhan. I wanted to maintain my recital of Qur'an, before learning to memorize new chapter in the next session. Two juz per day, start from juz 1 to 9 and jump to 30. It's day 20 already, and how's my progress?

Bad.

At the first week of Ramadhan, I was still in holiday from teaching. I thought that I was doing good. But then, it's teaching time again in the following week. And it happened to be my period. So many excuses to made, from household chores, child-nurturing and stuffs, I lost my rhythmn. It's no longer two juz per day but just... several pages maybe. Then comes the following week, I started to fast again, and went to teach, even though not much student came to the class. Just one or two. And still breastfeeding when I came back home. Tiring? Well, I'm not wonder woman to work on everything with flying colors... I got tired, fall asleep while breastfeeding my son and when I woke up, it's already sahur time.

When I opened my mushaf and saw the where the bookmark was.... I realized I didn't progress much. Why you always have time to check on your phone but not your mushaf? I felt sorry for myself and even though I promised to get better the next day, I still fail. But I shall not give up, shall I?

It's Ramadhan, the moment of self-reflection. Look into yourself and admit when you are wrong or mistaken. Learn from your mistake, and do better if you have the chance to see tomorrow.
Astaghfirullah....