I got a "note" from my boss today. Really shocking as I never thought what I wrote in WA could bring me this kind of day . It's like a warning. To behave. To think before you type, sort of thing. That when a permission is not granted, one should not act against the rule. Huh.
I cried afterwards. Alone. On my own. In the toilet. Then holding up until I get my backpack, waving goodbye to a friend then leave. I drove my motorcycle weeping. Yelling to myself that I don't deserve this. That there is another employees like me. Or even worse but why it's only me? I said to myself such thoughts but then...
Well maybe I deserve this. I was wrong but I don't want to admit. Who could easily do such things when you feel like just speaking up your mind. Maybe not everything in your mind needs to be spoken up. Several things need to be bottled up inside and keep silent.
Watch them silently like you are not there. Do what you have to do. And leave when it's time to. I learned something to day. I have to. My boss is my boss. Not a friend. And friends are one I can't get in my work environment. They are just colleagues and that's all. No hard feelings, let alone special feeling. Haha!!
I might forget this one day, and start to treat people over friendly like hell. Then when I got disappointed, I turn to disbelieve them again. It's like a cycle. Stupid cycle of mine. Okay fine, today's lesson is learned and no need to rehearse in any way.
I need to behave, watch my mouth, watch my thumbs on what to type, and such. The world might not be on your side, they have their problems as well.
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