Being able to live one more day, one should be thankful enough to fill the day with good things....
That, is something I am supposed to do.... But then, I don't know. I hope it's a good day, a good lesson for tomorrow. Today is the result of a thing I did in the past, something happened and I can't change the fact. But still I am the one who can control my own respond to it. If not then... Shame on me.
Okay, it happens to be like this. I resigned from my previous job because I applied in another company that is closer to my place. I made it sure to be accepted there, that's why I rushed my resignation letter. Then, a month after that moment, come a test for every candidates. Qodarullah, my marks was not so good to secure my chance of being accepted, formally. Then, maybe the owner of the company wants to give me another chance, so she arranged an interview, for every candidates. She even mentions one test that she didn't tell another test-taker. I feel it somehow unfair, knowing that I could possibly fail on that test as well, since it's not an easy test. Qur'an memorization test.
Okay.... Let's say... I didn't put my best effort to study for the test, then I finished it with such marks. So it's my fault. I endanger my own chance of working there. But then, if the worst scenario might be I didn't get accepted at all, I would be unemployed. While I'm already leaving my previous position. Well... everything has a risk in this life, I should've known better. But to think again of all these situations.... I might have a chance to do another thing which is better for me to do, for instance spending more time with my son despite having not much money to earn, since I'm such a freeloader in my parents' house and doing small business online... haha. Not funny.
What I what to say is, I should not be dying for this job. And I should not even tell the world about the upcoming interview's purpose. Let it be just part of things in life I need to go through. You don't need to explain everything to others, just to defend yourself. It could make things worse.
Okay. So you didn't study well before. But will regretting makes a change? It's already happening, no turning back, no point of trying to find who's the one at fault. Maybe it's me who keeps my hope too high, believing that I'm already accepted before the actual test. Or arguing with myself that it's not my fault, or this or that. No need. Another way to waste your time, Ras.
Just, go through it. Accept the fact, smile, and keep silent. You'll be fine, you'll be good. Even if you're not accepted there, for instance, it means that you are about to do something else. Why so sad about that? Regretting won't do any good. And let's say if you're accepted, then it's another challenge you need to cope. It's not going to be an easy task as well. Every choice has its consequences and don't ever think of regretting the path you already chosen. Being able to turn back time doesn't mean that things will be good as you thought it might be. Just accepted it as part of Allah's bigger plan that you haven't known yet.
He won't waste you like nothing. You are one of His precious creature, that if you value yourself as His 'ibad' =) Keep on believing, keep on praying. May Allah help you and give you the best in your life. He has everything, and He can't be wrong. Allah knows better. Put your faith in Him and never fail to trust His decision upon your life.
He is your creator, Allah knows you far better than you know yourself. Keep asking for his guidance and you shall not go ashtray. =)
I'm saying this not to comfort you, knowing that people around you might be harsh because they don't understand but, it's your life. You can choose to be disappointed all the time, or be happy with whatever given to you in front of your door, as a good surprise, or not so well anticipated surprise.
That, is something I am supposed to do.... But then, I don't know. I hope it's a good day, a good lesson for tomorrow. Today is the result of a thing I did in the past, something happened and I can't change the fact. But still I am the one who can control my own respond to it. If not then... Shame on me.
Okay, it happens to be like this. I resigned from my previous job because I applied in another company that is closer to my place. I made it sure to be accepted there, that's why I rushed my resignation letter. Then, a month after that moment, come a test for every candidates. Qodarullah, my marks was not so good to secure my chance of being accepted, formally. Then, maybe the owner of the company wants to give me another chance, so she arranged an interview, for every candidates. She even mentions one test that she didn't tell another test-taker. I feel it somehow unfair, knowing that I could possibly fail on that test as well, since it's not an easy test. Qur'an memorization test.
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Okay.... Let's say... I didn't put my best effort to study for the test, then I finished it with such marks. So it's my fault. I endanger my own chance of working there. But then, if the worst scenario might be I didn't get accepted at all, I would be unemployed. While I'm already leaving my previous position. Well... everything has a risk in this life, I should've known better. But to think again of all these situations.... I might have a chance to do another thing which is better for me to do, for instance spending more time with my son despite having not much money to earn, since I'm such a freeloader in my parents' house and doing small business online... haha. Not funny.
What I what to say is, I should not be dying for this job. And I should not even tell the world about the upcoming interview's purpose. Let it be just part of things in life I need to go through. You don't need to explain everything to others, just to defend yourself. It could make things worse.
Okay. So you didn't study well before. But will regretting makes a change? It's already happening, no turning back, no point of trying to find who's the one at fault. Maybe it's me who keeps my hope too high, believing that I'm already accepted before the actual test. Or arguing with myself that it's not my fault, or this or that. No need. Another way to waste your time, Ras.
Just, go through it. Accept the fact, smile, and keep silent. You'll be fine, you'll be good. Even if you're not accepted there, for instance, it means that you are about to do something else. Why so sad about that? Regretting won't do any good. And let's say if you're accepted, then it's another challenge you need to cope. It's not going to be an easy task as well. Every choice has its consequences and don't ever think of regretting the path you already chosen. Being able to turn back time doesn't mean that things will be good as you thought it might be. Just accepted it as part of Allah's bigger plan that you haven't known yet.
He won't waste you like nothing. You are one of His precious creature, that if you value yourself as His 'ibad' =) Keep on believing, keep on praying. May Allah help you and give you the best in your life. He has everything, and He can't be wrong. Allah knows better. Put your faith in Him and never fail to trust His decision upon your life.
He is your creator, Allah knows you far better than you know yourself. Keep asking for his guidance and you shall not go ashtray. =)
I'm saying this not to comfort you, knowing that people around you might be harsh because they don't understand but, it's your life. You can choose to be disappointed all the time, or be happy with whatever given to you in front of your door, as a good surprise, or not so well anticipated surprise.
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