It’s good
to be home, again. Well... ‘home’ is more likely when you can settle things
with yourself and be at peace at heart. Wherever you are, as long as you don’t
struggle too much to calm down yourself, accepting your flaws instead of hating
yourself for being... ‘you’. The way you are too timid to try new things... the
way you were ‘late’ compare to some other person at the same age, same
condition, or stuffs. But what exactly the point of comparing ourselves with
others?
I was just
coming back from a short trip to Jakarta. It’s kinda, well, more like life
lesson rather than a mere holiday. I need to learn a lot from this trip. About how
I should handle my little son, about myself, about me and mom, about travel
simply and saving money to enjoy some more luxury.... what did I learn? One thing
I want to share for now is, not to choose L*on Air for flight. It’s better to
pay a little more expensive with a better probability of comfortability, or
choosing another option of transportation such as train. Call it reschedule,
delay, long time to take off and landing, bad air conditioner that upset some
babies on plane, lol. How could it be so hot in an airplane? It’s kinda
funny....
Another unrelated
thing I want to write is that I think I want to “take care more about my looks”.
In a near future I’m thinking of learning how to wear bb cream, eyeliner and
mascara. One sheer color lip balm made a huge effect several days ago. It’s
like, oh, I never thought my friends and students could care so much for a
change in my lip color. Let alone a bright lipstick, it’s just a lip balm....
^o^ and then it pops in my mind like, it’s not gonna hurt too much to have a
little color in the face. A little change won’t hurt, I hope. It’s not like I’m
looking for an attention from the entire world but just, to know that I still
care about myself, no matter how often I mock myself like sh*t then self-pity
as if I’m the victim to everything.
A little
love to your own self won’t hurt, Ras. I know that too well to be true. Just like
the air crew used to say, help yourself before you help your children or other
person, love yourself before anyone else. Then I know you’ll see the world in a
different view. Let’s give it a try, shall we? =)
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