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"She has to deal with herself first, before anyone else."

...and deep inside, I'm trying. Maybe not much of a struggle but I'm into it. I'll be a mom Fatih can be proud of. It's a responsibility I have to bear in my life. Maybe this is my goal in life, my true mission... Who would ever thought that I would be a mom and bear such a lovely son without a husband? For whatever reason that he left, I try to believe that it's for the best.

It's the best setting Allah has provided me with. I should be thankful and go with it. I know I can. No matter how creative life would challenge me, Allah will show me the way to deal with it.

I need to get done with myself, my internal conflict, my emotional ups and downs, myself.

Alfatih will be as good as Ust Adi Hidayat and even better. I'll teach him, or manage to teach him, somehow, to memorize Qur'an and he will crown me in the Day After...

Bismillah, I need to focus! Because I know it will happen. Surely is!

(@KB-TK Alfalah, Kamis 9 Nopember 2017 11:20)

Sepertinya tulisan di atas aku tulis setelah dengerin siaran radio tentang bagaimana menjadi perempuan berdaya, ah... over confidence? Humm... better than having no goal to set up with ^^; what so wrong with reaching the sky, at the very least you may fall into the stars and that's far better than never reach out my hand from the earth...... hummm... well, being idealist isn't a bad idea as long as good planning following behind, haha...

Okay, the point is I need to deal with myself, my anxiety, my emotional roller-coaster, my shopping addict, and stuff.... It's okay to cry sometimes, it's okay to feel bad about yourself once in a while, but make it short. Remember the lesson, not just the situation... it is true that you are no perfect, full of flaws and this or that but also remember that you are good in certain way, keep up with it.

You are worth it, you deserve to be happy, and there's nothing so wrong to feel OKAY after all this things. Get done with yourself, set out your goal, and keep moving in life. Try to start anew, making a new habit like working out in the morning after a cup of herbal tea is good! No need to feel wrong just because you haven't seen the result just yet.

It's okay, Ras. It's okay to feel okay and going on with good things in life. Smile, and being thankful. You'll see the world in a better light and there's nothing wrong with that.

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