Arabian nights...
like arabian days... whatever.
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| let it gooo, let it go, haha... |
Today is
sooooo... hmmm... right. Alhamdulillah. I loved how things happen today. Well,
no tears, not much of misunderstanding, lovely smile from my little kiddo,
although on several things he prefer with his Grandma instead of me, though.
Good thing is I’m trying to accept that, and sounds okay inside of me. Like,
things have plus and minus to everything so I shouldn’t be too sad or dramatic
about it that things like this will last for eternity, that my kiddo don’t like
me anymore etc... Nah, it is okay if he prefers his Grandma. I have things to
do as well. Glad I finally manage to work on some paperworks I need to finish.
Today, I
learned to accept that it’s okay for my son to attach with his grandma and
grandpa. I got time for myself and in return, I need to remind myself that
there is a price to pay for everything. At least I need to work on some
household chores like washing dishes, cooking something, if needed. Oh yeah, it
feels soooo goood to let go of things you can’t control and leave it up to
Allah, the Owner of everything.
Today, I
also learned that my wish was answered immediately by Allah! That He heard me,
even without me saying. Allah is The Almighty. Allahu Akbar. There was a
wedding party in my neighborhood and I couldn’t come because I wasn’t invited
but my parents’ did. Then, somehow, when I was so hungry after accompanying my
little kiddo with his whatever activities.... A neighbor came by and sent us
some leftover food!!!! See, how can you not believe when something was meant to
be yours, sooner or later you will get it in your hand. Be it you who come to
pick it, or that thing come right in front of your door. “Kalau rejeki itu
nggak kemana” was proven to be too awesome to be true.
Today,
hmm.. well, I try to understand that maybe at some points my mom has her own
way of thinking too independently that she thought others could easily accept
her decision. No wonder it could end up in an argument. Is mind-reading really
existed? So from now, I really need to remind myself that whatever my mom might
complain later, just don’t rebutt it. Accept it, swallow it, and even if it
sounds unfair, try to understand her. Not for her, not even for the sake of
world peace but just for yourself. Your and your own peace of mind.
And today....
at least I want to greet Mr. Old Friend. Not directly though, just a little ‘hi’
that I wish would reach him somehow. I wish he’s in a good condition and in a
good mood to enjoy the day.
For you who
take your time to read this note, believe me it’s not coincidental that you
click and read through this not-so-important note of day. I just try to remind
myself that for whatever happens, there will always enough reason to thank for
being alive one more day, doing good deeds and remind intact with your Creator.
You deserve to be happy, Ras. Even if you think it’s just being happy inside a
little garden in your mind, but you are allowed to smile and still be good
about it. No need to feel guilty about everything. Alhamdulillah.
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